So you know how you feel when you find out that people have lied to you for a really long time? Yeah, it sucks. And what's worse is that the only one to blame is myself. And I realize that I lied to myself for just as long and I started to believe it. Now, I'm the one left with all the consequences. Life has a way of sucking like that sometimes. I guess it's my fault for falling for it. The only person we can ever count on is ourselves and when we can't do that, we get screwed over. So here's a piece of advice. Count on no one to do anything but yourself. Everyone else will lie to you but you have the power to not believe them. Live your life for yourself and no one else. Besides, no one makes it out of life alive anyways. Remember?
P.S. Everyone knows but you. So do you still think you want to know? It can't be good if no one has told you right?
Friday, November 23, 2007
What can you do when you know that every secret you have kept has done know nothing to help you in your life? Sometimes, the biggest secret we have is so confusing and complicated, it takes everything in us to let ourselves believe that's it's actually real. I was reading people's secrets on postsecrets.com and some of them are so terribly sad and I wonder how people can be living with these things inside and then I remember that we all are. We each have the one secret, or those two, or more. And, they are painfull, and sad but we keep them inside because we are afraid. Not of what people will think of us but because if we keep inside we are the only ones who have to believe it and bear the pain that comes with it. If we keep it inside it doesn't seem as real and it's easier to deal with. But really, what's the point? No one ever makes it out of life alive.
Saturday, November 17, 2007
Sometimes when you sit all alone on a Satuday night with hair that looks like shit and your father claims that everything that has ever gone wrong in this family is your fault, you just don't feel like it's worth it. And maybe it's not. Maybe we shouldn't have to put up with it at all but we do anyways because we know that what ever we do to try and change it will make us lose everything we love along with whatever it is we want to change. It's a horrible vicious circle and it never stops. It's sad that it may never change for the most of us. I think that may be the hardest part. Knowing that it could be possible and having that small amount of hope but all along really knowing we are stuck in lives we sometimes wish would end.
Monday, November 12, 2007
Sometimes I get a little worried when I see some people not rebelling in some way against their parents. Not that I am suggesting that everyone show go pierce their tongue and join a cult, but a little rebellion is necessary. If you are never fighting what your parents do or say, you could be conforming to their incorrect ideas instead of forming your own. Take, for example, your average way too over protective, wrongly assuming, asshole parent who believes that a coat of iron at least 3 inches thick should be protecting their child at all times. Those parents can get really bad if their kids aren't slapping them on the wrist and saying "Hey, did I ever tell you your are a real dick wad sometimes? Well, you are." It is especially bad when you have that parent speaking out about it. "Well, I don't mean to make this any harder for you or put you on the spot (when they really do), but I am concerned about my child (when they really have just lost a way to either A. grab attention or B. speak about what they think)" They speak about the most ridiculous things. Like "Will the dorm rooms be at least 500 yards apart?" or "Are there going to be more than 20 chaperone's?" I mean, c'mon, your kid is going to be just fine. Stop pissing your pants and get a life that doesn't involve playing God to your child. So, in a way, I take back what I said. If you have this kind of parent, I say go get a couple tats and skip a class or two. You deserve it.